Learning
to embrace you’re non-conformity and spiritual enlightenment
Life is very hard for people that choose to live their
lives as a free thinker. Being different is not easy to say the least. Times can
be tough for people like this on many levels.
Growing up I liked playing with all my friends, but I never
liked doing what they liked doing. Sometimes I would just do what everyone else
did because I wanted to try and have fun, but most of the time, I did not have
fun.
I have always been about being different not thinking
like everyone else, not believing what everyone else believes and not looking
like everyone else looks. I wanted to be me.
This mind set has kept me from success on many levels. But
I am OK with that because I have learned to embrace free thought. My free
thought on several different subjects has brought to me, many different titles.
Some of those titles are dumb ass, retarded, stupid, nut case, tin foil hat and
a slew of other derogatory things.
But I really don’t mind that. What does hurt a little is
the separation from the people that I love because of my free thought. I am
separated from my family and oh so many people that I like to call friends.
I like get togethers, but I become uncomfortable because
of the things everyone likes to talk about, because I do not believe most of
the things everyone talks about.
I am also a free spirit and see things in people that is
very hard for most people to understand and believe. I have no idea as to why I
see and feel these things, but it’s very painful at times, because I can feel
bad vibrations or bad thoughts or see into the spirit or lack of spirit in
people. I can feel if someone is talking about me in a negative way, I can feel
if a person has a good heart or a deceitful heart. All these things are very
painful to me because I like to love everyone and do not want to see these
things, but embrace the fact that I can.
I am also a person that fights for truth and even
thought it falls on deaf ears I do not stop and this causes people to separate
themselves from me because they are conformists and do as everyone else does
and thinks as everyone else thinks. Just picture 1 person on one side of the
room and a group of others on the other side of the room. This group of people,
believe the same thing even though they have zero proof of it being true but
this group ridicules the one person on the other side of the room because they
do not step over to their side and believe like everyone else.
It is a very hard life in these aspects, however; there
are comforts to being a part of the un-crowd, and those comforts make it
rewarding.
When you see and hear things in a deeper way you will
always come away with a different conclusion. And in my case it’s usually the
conclusion that is completely different than everyone else’s. This is where the
belittling and demonizing comes into play.
I will never take things at face value because under the
surface there may very well be bigger and better things, or in some cases the
actual truth.
Don’t get me wrong I am comfortable with being around a
great deal of people but, I do not conform to their beliefs so my conversations
with those people tend to be very brief.
When you live your life as a free thinker with a discerning
spirit, the rewards on many levels are worth it. You know who your true friends
are because you can feel it on a spiritual level. You can tell if people are
giving you a line of bull or telling the truth. You can see things in a dimension
that most do not. You can see things happen before they actually happen. You hate
seeing people in pain especially if there is no way for you to comfort them.
You see truths that are lies when most believe those
lies. I have come to terms with all this, because I grow ever so close to the spiritual
creator and in him a place my faith. When the world continues to fall deeper
into the deceitful lies of the masses, I grow even closer to the truth and the
truth even closer to me.
It is in man’s nature to be accepted and with this comes
many lies that are given and received. In this life also comes corruption, and with
the corrupted, only lies and deceit. In this life there are those that seek
absolute power, and with that power comes the sacrifice of the truth, and the
suffering of many.
I will never turn from my creator because of the truth
he shows me, and because many have turned from the creator, they are given lies,
and in those lies that they embrace forces them to fight tooth and nail for;
those lies and it is disheartening to me to see this, but if these types cannot
turn from conformity and see things as they truly are I cannot do anything to
help them and this to hurts deeply.
I have come to terms with knowing that there are only a
few out there like me, but it still hurts knowing what I know and seeing so
many others fall into the conformity state of mind.
I think it’s just too hard for people to understand that
just because everyone else says its true does not necessarily make it true. Am I
right all the time; of course not but I would rather be wrong thinking for
myself than right because that’s how everyone else thinks.
There are many things in this life most do not
understand and it is not because they don’t want to its because it is hard for
them to because being a part of the un-crowd comes with consequences and those consequences
are the lack of friends and constant ridicule from the in-crowd.
With everything I have just written I would like to give
a bit of incite and that is, do not trust man to tell the truth especially
those in power. Most of them are not good people, and they seek only to lie and deceive
us all to line their pockets with riches, and continue their fight that they
have been fighting for hundreds of years, to remove the very word "God" from the
minds of all man. Each lie they tell gets bigger and bigger, but those that
have opened their mind and stepped away from the crowd that ridicules those who
bring truth, will see them in their true form, evil to the core their lips
without truth and their minds controlled by the very evil cast out of heaven by
our creator.
Matthew 13:22
The seed sown among the thorns is the one who hears the
word, but the worries of this world and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the
word, and it becomes unfruitful.
Acts 26:18
to open their eyes, so that they may turn from darkness
to light and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness
of sins and an inheritance among those sanctified by faith in Me.'
2 Corinthians 2:11
in order that Satan should not outwit us. For we are not
unaware of his schemes.
2 Corinthians 3:14
But their minds were closed. For to this day the same
veil remains at the reading of the old covenant. It has not been lifted,
because only in Christ can it be removed.
2 Corinthians 4:4
In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of
them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is
the image of God, should shine unto them.